The Lie about the Truth

The last time I saw you
We couldn't hug tight
The memories we made together came in between
Distances of the heart are a mile longer
The smile that you bring to my face
Was fighting to keep the eyes from glistening with tears
I knew from the second I saw you this feeling is here to stay
Yet we bid adieu.

Nothing lasts forever they say
No one told me its never this way
There is a bigger evil I had heard
Let it not reside within me I pray
I have bigger sins to commit I said to self
You had ignited the fire and doused it with promises to stay
The lure of the unknown is what made you its prey
As u willingly embrace it
My faith in you lies slayed.
I now choose to tread the road less travelled
I smile because I still want to believe the lies u told
Our paths won't cross
Yet I hope we do meet again someday.

The Proposal

He slipped the ring on my finger
glistening three tiny diamonds on gold
Looking into my eyes "Be mine" he asked me in earnest
He promised  "when I can afford hon This stone shall be bigger
I have no flowers or frills to impress you
For I shall love you forever time shall see
As I live my days in your loving presence
Our love shall grow"
My mother had said someday
I pray you get a man who loves you more than your father
makes you feel like a little girl and treats you like a lady
Cos in his eyes u shall see the father of your unborn child.
Tears flood my eyes pearly two drops of joy
I said 'I do'
I always wanted to.  

Stillborn

The day you died within me
You took away alongwith a part of me.
The life that was yet to be borne
envisioning a memory to cherish for a lifetime was no more a reality
Snatched away from me unexpectedly & so very cruelly
What did I do to deserve this?
I asked myself umpteen times.
No one did answer but the voices haunted my existence
The pain you never experience is always the open unhealed wound
The indelible scar reminiscent of the agony.
To never give it another try is a choice
To some, who shall never understand.
This begining was an end to me.
Fetching the scattered pieces I bury the want deep within my heart
Inspite of all, it still beats the familiar tune
Someone who calls me mother
.....is sleeping peacefully etched in my soul.

My Sleeping Child

I often wondered
Were you a boy
The eternal bundle of joy
 Or the pretty girl
Babydoll we wud fondly call
The first cry after u enter this world
 Was it you saying mommy whats this all?
 The warm loving feel of your womb
And why is it so cold outside
The bright lights scare me & the voices seem strange
 Your comforting heartbeat soothes my soul
Let me stay within you forever, mother
For our hearts beat as one.
 "Oh my sleeping child" I wail
Mommy wouldn't have it any other way
 All her life she will cherish this day
 I mourned for no reason
 For the numerous joys we can't measure
 You were borne to be a part of me
 It ain't matter where u sleep child
Mommy will always sing you a lullaby.

She is a woman... always a mother thereafter.

I cried a lot that day
And a little more everyday
I asked God why?
No, I din't want to believe You called for the good ones early
I never really was that bad!
I wished & prayed it was me instead of you
Cos at least mother would not be as lost
Her stray tear would still be apparent
No matter how hard she tried to hide
She smiled everytime she looked at me
In that I saw a godliness that no one else can
Her will was lost but hope was still intact.
"No matter what I will live on to see you spread your wings and fly".
She said one day, "my little girl you shall understand, Why I chose to be a mother first over being a woman"
Don't consider it a sacrifice because this is what I choose
To see the daughter I reared with the love of my life
To help and realise her thineself, to soar and to realise her dreams,
To smile, to be loved and to be able to love".
I will always miss my father
Yet I proudly say I was fathered by my Mother!!

Love you Mommy. There is indeed no one as beautiful as you.